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[May. 29th, 2006|02:14 am]
We Must Be Perfect
somedoby please help me im crying harder than i ever have. its been hours. i cant stop. im a fat disgusting pig. im scared. i dont want to be alone. i weaned myself off antidepressantas (effexor) not a good idea. anyone else hate strippers. i do. i hate stirp clubs. i hate what theyre for. my bf says he promises the only stripper he'll ever see is at his bachelor party. anyone else get bothered by fiances having strippers at bachelor parties? im scared.she'll touch him. he'll touch her back. she'll put her breatss in his face, he'll kiss her and lick her and she'll go down on them. what if they have sex? surely his friends will get him so bombed he won't even know what he's ddoing. thats the whole point. see one last babe who will do anything for you before you get to spend the rest of your life with the last lame fuck you'll ever have. unless your one of 60% of married men that cheat.

please tell me my boyfriend loves me. please tlel me its going to be ok. please tell me im not worthless. please tell me im loved. please tell me i can drop from 115 lbs to 100 by july 12th. please tlel me that at 5'1'' i can be beautiful. please tell me i can make him happy. please tell me i can stop crying.

[User Picture]From: nikol1981
2006-05-30 11:16 pm (UTC)

Please dont cry!

I can't believe that you have decided to get married and you are feeling so insecure! If a man wants to be with you for the rest of his life is not for your body or for your sex scores. Above all is for your personality, your soul and your uniqueness as a person as a woman. Think clearly before panicing and opening the door to depression. I know what you may feel sometimes in front of the mirror cause i feel it too but then my sense tells me that my man is not a pig is a human being, a person with feelings who has fell in love with the inner me.

Good luck!
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From: 0_yuuki_0
2006-07-05 02:41 am (UTC)
have a better party?

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From: 0_yuuki_0
2006-07-05 02:43 am (UTC)
but if you need anyone to talk to seriously, i have the same values. msg me. yuuki
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[User Picture]From: amazngitsallee
2009-05-10 04:55 am (UTC)

you're beautiful.

stop worrying. i am 5'1 and weigh 115 too. i have struggled with sporadic anorexia and bulimia, terrible body-image, and even bingeing disorder. but trust me, you're beautiful just the way you are. i promise. You CAN make him happy. Nobody wants to spend their whole life having mind-blowing sex without some other deeper connection, which if you are marrying him, clearly you have. He loved who you are, whatever flaws you come with. The little bit of weight on you is what makes you sexy to him. If he loves you he isnt going to hook up with some random girl. If he was wasted and did, he either wouldnt remember, would feel SOO bad, and it would mean nothing either way, because he loves YOU. Please put aside your fears. You aren't a fat ugly pig. I'm here to talk to you if you ever need inspiration.

love xox
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